One year ago I was completely and utterly heartbroken. @katlucillephotography was one of many friends who stepped up for me at what felt like my darkest hour. When she asked if there was anything she could do, I said “Help me turn my grief into art.” And we did just that.
I’ve never sobbed so hard in front of another human being. I can only imagine what it was like for her to photograph me like that. I had lost 7 pounds in 5 days because I couldn’t eat and I couldn’t sleep more than an hour or two without medication. I hadn’t showered in all those 5 days. This was probably my emotional rock bottom. I haven’t cried nearly so hard again since the day these were taken.
Looking at these photos doesn’t remind me of all that hurt anymore. I’m proud of them. I’m proud that I took back everything I had poured into another person and poured it back into myself and my passions. I’m proud that at my most vulnerable, I opened up instead of closing myself off. There’s a beauty in that, I think. And there’s so much beauty in my life.